To the Appeal Committee

on behalf of

Bill Bowen

Dear Elders,

There is only one point that I feel needs to be made. I understand that Bill Bowen is being charged with "causing divisions in the organization." That charge is preposterous.

I believe that the issue is a much graver one than that.

I see the real and true issue to be "Who is causing divisions between Jehovah God and his precious little children?!"

Yes, "Who is putting a stumbling block between the little children who are victims (as well as the adults that they become) and their Heavenly Father?"

To whom is Jesus speaking in Matthew 18:4, 5, 6, 10, 14 about the little


Who "stumbles one of these little ones who put faith in me?" Bill Bowen? Or, the Governing Body? Jesus said, "it is more beneficial for him to have hung around his neck a millstone such as is turned by an ass and to be sunk in the wide, open sea." (NWT)

Who has become "an obstacle to bring down one of these little ones who have faith in (Him)"? Has Bill Bowen? Or, has the Governing Body?

Jesus said he "would be better off drowned in the depths of the sea with a great millstone around his neck." (Jerusalem Bible)

Who "causes one of these little ones who trusts in me to lose his faith?" Is it Bill Bowen? Or, the Governing Body? Jesus said "it would be better for you to have a rock tied to your neck and be thrown into the sea." (Living Bible)

Who "is a hindrance to one of these little ones who believe in me?" Bill Bowen? Or, the Governing Body? Jesus said it would be "better for him to have a great millstone hung round his neck and be sunk in the deep sea." (A New Translation by James Moffatt) (Also, compare Matthew 23:13)

Who is Jesus warning in verses 10 & 14 when he says, "Beware that you don't look down upon a single one of these little children. For I tell you that in heaven their angels have constant access to my Father...Just so, it is not my Father's will that even one of these little ones should perish." (Living Bible) Is it Bill Bowen? Or, the Governing Body?

And again, who is Jesus warning, "See to it that you men do not despise one of these little ones; for I tell you that their angels in heaven always behold the face of my Father who is in heaven...Likewise it is not a desirable thing with my Father who is in heaven for one of these little ones to perish." (NWT) Is it Bill Bowen? Or, the Governing Body?

Who is putting the little ones' present and eternal lives in danger with the "Child Protection Policy?" Bill Bowen? Or, the Governing Body?

In my 40+ years as one of Jehovah's Witnesses I never once heard about the Society's "Child Protection Policy!" I never once saw any mention of it in print! That is, until now! In fact, until the 1/1/97 Watchtower article "Let Us Abhor What Is Wicked" there has never been a discussion about child molesters among Jehovah's Witnesses. It was only in "other" religions, never ours! Why is it all of a sudden being offered to all of us? Any thinking person can see right through it.

This so-called "Child Protection Policy" is nothing more than an effort to whitewash what is very filthy, an effort to prevent and stop the exposure of this evil practice among Jehovah's Witnesses and to prevent the rescue of our vulnerable and innocent children from the practicers of this rank evil!

Who is giving children the impression that God does not care about them and that He will not protect them or believe them? Bill Bowen? Or, the Governing Body?

Who is making them feel that He does not want to listen to them? Bill Bowen? Or, the Governing Body?

Who is making it more difficult for the little ones to trust and believe that their prayers to God are even heard by Him?...so that they may even question whether to pray to God at all? Bill Bowen? Or, the Governing Body?

Who is making these innocent little victims believe that Jehovah loves the bad guy more than He loves them?! Bill Bowen? Or, the Governing Body?

Who is breaking the tender hearts of Jehovah God's and Christ Jesus' "little ones"? Is it Bill Bowen? Or, is it the Governing Body?


Who is destroying the faith of "these little ones" in Jehovah God, breaking their connection with Him? Bill Bowen? Or, the Governing Body?

Who is stripping Jehovah's "little ones" of the hope that is their rightful inheritance, even making many of them want to die? Bill Bowen?

Or, the Governing Body?

Who is guilty of causing "absolute endangerment of spirituality" to these children and adult survivors? (Compare w11/1/88 p22 par 11) Is it Bill Bowen? Or, is it the Governing Body?

Who has abandoned Jehovah’s "little ones" and protected the perpetrators? Bill Bowen? Or, the Governing Body?...THROUGH YOU!

Who is damaging their spirituality, perhaps irreparably? Bill Bowen?

Or, the Governing Body?...THROUGH YOU!

Who is doing ALL of this incredible damage, Brothers, to Jehovah's "little ones"? Bill Bowen? Or, the Governing Body?...THROUGH YOU!

Is this the reason you became elders? I would hope not!

I AM ONE OF THOSE "LITTLE ONES." I have personally experienced what I am talking about! I was raped by someone who enjoys mighty privileges today. My spirituality was put in grave danger by the elders and by their treatment of me over this very issue of childhood abuse. My heartfelt appeals to the Society and to the Governing Body for help fell on deaf ears.

My prayers have finally been answered! But, it hasn't been through the elder bodies or the Society or through the Governing Body. It has been through Bill Bowen and Silentlambs. I no longer feel alone and isolated as a victim/survivor, "divided" off from others. I am witness to Jehovah's blessing on Silentlambs, on Bill, on Barbara and on myself. My

faith in God has been strengthened as a result. I am no longer afraid

to speak out about what happened to me for fear of retribution from those who hurt me and from all of you.

Any loss of connection (or so-called "division") with the organization and the Governing Body is a direct result of THEIR disconnect from me and THEIR abandonment of me FIRST AND FOREMOST. Their conduct toward me forced me to have to choose between them and Him. It shouldn't have if they were truly faithful to Him, should it? I chose Him then and I choose Him now. I choose to remain connected to Him first and foremost at all costs.

In all honesty I cannot understand how you can say that you love Jehovah while loyally standing by those who hurt children like this...I cannot understand how you can be DISLOYAL to Jehovah God and to Jesus Christ and to the children who LOVE HIM. These are the children They seek to protect and save as evidenced by the verses quoted above. I cannot understand how you can be disloyal and still sleep at night.

I have only one suggestion for you all. It is found at Acts 5:34-39.

You know it well. "Men of Israel (Elders, Governing Body), pay attention to yourselves as to what you intend to do respecting these men (Bill Bowen, Joe and Barbara Anderson, Carl and Barbara Pandelo, Pat Garza, and others...).......And so, under the present circumstances, I say to you, Do not meddle with these men, but let them alone; (because, if this scheme or this work is from men, it will be overthrown; but if it is from God, you will not be able to overthrow them;) otherwise, you may perhaps be found fighters actually against God."

When you take sides with the organization and the Governing Body against innocent little children and against those who, like Bill Bowen, try to protect them, you put yourself in direct opposition to Jehovah God and to Jesus Christ. There is no mistake about it. There is no way that you are acting in harmony with the Holy Spirit. Rather you are joining the Governing Body in fighting the Holy Spirit's leading.

There's only one other side that you can be on, heaven forbid. We know who's side that is. The only one you can be aligning yourselves with is the one who hates those who love The Father. Only Satan can be so evil and devious as to destroy the faith of "these little ones" in their Heavenly Father. You don't want to be on his side, do you?

I pray that you get it straight and very soon for the sake of the children and for your own sakes...for your eternal destiny as well as theirs.

What are your consciences telling you during the night? If they are feeling sick you better change sides real quick before it is too late to extricate yourselves from a very, very sick and dangerous position.

(Compare Rev. 18:5) Quit shutting down to what Jehovah's Holy Spirit is trying to wake up in you!!

One last time I need to illustrate the point of my letter quite graphically. This is the stand that I personally see you men as taking if you refuse to make a change right away:

When I was a child my family was involved in a Satanic cult. A man, David Allen Napfino, tried to rescue me. He lost his life instead. They grabbed him and held him down while another grabbed a knife and stabbed him through the heart killing him instantly. I was tied up and forced to watch.

Are you not doing the same thing? Why are you trying to force me and others to stand back and watch while you hold down Bill Bowen, Barbara and Joe Anderson, and others while the Governing Body deliberately and knowingly thrusts the knife into their hearts and murders them? 'Slander is murder.' (Lev. 19:16) Disfellowshipping is total cutting off, supposedly unto eternal destruction. You are guilty of murder if you disfellowship this innocent man.

Yes, you are just as guilty in my eyes as my family members are; and I have no doubt, whatsoever, that you will be just as guilty in Jehovah's eyes if you do not act decisively to protect the children NOW "while it is in the power of your hand to do so." If, as you say, you are true shepherds of His sheep you ‘OWE IT’ to His "little ones." (Pro. 3:27)

Your personal guilt will be made manifest to the world if you still proceed to disfellowship Bill Bowen, if you continue to stand by the Governing Body on this issue and if you do not help to restore the good names and reputations, which you have slandered, of Bill, Barbara and others.

Jehovah is watching, Jesus is watching, the world is watching and I am watching to see what you will do on this most urgent and important matter! You cannot hide what you choose to do from this day forward and neither can the Governing Body.

Jesus said that what is done is secret will be shouted from the housetops.

>From this day forward I refuse to allow the organization's policies to

"tie me up" and silence me. (Compare Gal. 5:1) I refuse to follow the Society's demands to stand quietly by as more children are put at risk and molested. This time you WILL NOT prohibit me from speaking out and telling what I know. I will advocate for them to the greatest extent possible. I will make a shout big enough that it reaches up to heaven and it WILL be with Jehovah’s help. Just wait and see.